Hello, there are just certain things people don’t talk about on the internet. Religion being one of them. But I have told myself that I need to be 100% honest and speak my truth. And God/Christianity is a huge part of my truth. He lives in me. He also loves to test me. And that is exactly what he is doing right now. He decided to take my life, flip it over and let all the contents of me fall and shatter into a million peices on the floor. He is making me hold on to him for dear life because it is one of the only things I have left. He is testing me for who I pursue romantically in my life. He is having me make what I think is one of the hardest decisions I have ever had to make in my life so far.
The great, all mighty lord is making me uncomfortable. But it is when we are like this we move farther in our faith. You must be uncomfortable to create change. A friend told me that on the first night of a bible study group that ended up changing my life. God is giving me no choice but to trust him, to let me be held. And that is probably one of the most scariest things to me. If I am looking at my life as a whole I see the most biggest mess. But God sees his beautiful, perfect creation. And that blows my mind.
-Angel Ray
Angels in the stars 