I have all the questions!

Fuck! I fell for you. Oops! I didn’t mean to say fuck, damn it I said it again! Ughhhh I’ll deal with it later.

Anyways, there is a reason there is a space between BOY and FRIEND. That’s where the friendzone is. And I promised myself I would stay there, but why did I fall for you? Was it your kind words? Your smile? Your laugh? Our connection? Am I just lonely? I have all these questions with no answers. Why is love/liking someone so confusing? Like why can’t it just be simple and people say what they feel.

I feel this connection with him. But I don’t want to push it. What if I ruin the friendship? What if everything goes to shit? (Another cuss word…) What if he likes me too but doesn’t like my age? Like I said there are so many fucking questions. I said fuck again. Ugh I hate being a Christian sometimes. But I love it so much at the same time. At least he understands that. Why does he understand me on a different level? More questions, okay… I HAVE ALL THE QUESTIONS!! But the real question is does he feel the same…